i am pretty sure that i have a fear of success. i believe that i am absolutely TERRIFIED of succeeding. it is not that i don't want to succeed, it is just that i feel more comfortable when there are problems to solve. i actually enjoy the challenge of troubleshooting, as opposed to bliss. I am most happiest when i know i am helping/contributing. so perhaps you are wondering what brought about this change of topic. well i'll tell you. and if you weren't wondering what brought this about, then ...

so here i am, trying my hand at blogging. this is an interesting experience. i joined and posted 3 articles yesterday, and someone has already read one. very interesting. i get an odd feeling when i think about an unknown person reading my personal thoughts and feelings. what a concept. i find that i don't express my emotions in a very effective manner. it is something that i am working on. i wonder how much shit other people put up with? i wonder if i take more or less shit than the average ...

i look young for my age. i will admit it. i am 24 years old and at times i look like i am still in high school. this is not such a bad thing, when people ask me about school. but i am an honest person. i can openly admit that i am in my sixth year working towards my 2-year degree. i have attented college off and on for those 6 years, but i get so many raised eyebrows. what is wrong with taking our time? when i first enrolled in college, it was right after high school. i did it solely to a...